Waiting it out

Yeah...there is much on my mind today.

I met this guy a while ago. He is acutally in a bike club that I am familiar with, however I never had a chance to acutally meet him until earlier this year. We had been emailing each other on myspace because he had always been sending little short messages like "Hey" and "What's up", things of that nature. So he mentioned coming up to a party in Columbia one weekend, and I was like cool because I will be at that same party.

It was in April. We introduce ourselves to each other, small talk. Basically that's it. I pretty much walked around all night taking pictures for our club's website and speaking to others. It wasn't until a few days later, this guy hit me up on myspace again.

To make a long story short, we started communicating more often, on the phone, on the internet. Things seem to be cool. We hadn't even been on a date and it seems as though we were feeling each other. Then a couple of weeks ago, I called him and we started talking and he was like he had to back away from me because he was developing feelings and he didn't know if he was ready to say that he is going to date just one woman. He continued to say I didn't do anything wrong but he just wanted to make sure this is the direction he wanted to go. As he stated, " You are messing my head up right now and I don't know what to do".

WHAT??? I don't even know whether to be flattered or to be aggravated at that. I am glad that he told me about that and made it clear. Some men won't even take the time to do that. Still I guess what got me is when I am at a point where I am feeling this dude and want to see where things lead, I get the big ol WHAMMO!!! The only thing to do in this situation is to let time take it's course. No lie it is very hard when you and the other person had communication so good you two were talking almost every night, but they say if it is meant to be, it will happen and we can't determine the time of that.

Being single...the joy, the pain, the unpredictable.

Wondering Wednesday

I wish could say today started off great, but it didn't. Work pretty much was the same old thing, few calls, few billing issues. I got two text from one of the guys who's in the motorcycle industry about some people who were either hospitalized or something happened to them tragically. As part of the community, we tend to spread the word to others so that they will keep the family in their prayers.

Well one associate of mine must have been having a bad day himself or was just not into it, because he texted me back saying stop sending him all that bad news. I could have read it and slid it under a rug or something, however at the same time it sounded like I aggravated him of some sorts, and I haven't spoken to him in three or four days!!! I immediately texted him back stating I was just passing along the info but he can go ahead and forget that I even sent the text. I didn't want to appear that I was bothering him and I won't bother texting him about anything else. In some way I felt bad about going off on him like that but in some way I do not. I didn't feel that I did anything wrong. Maybe he had been going through something. I don't know but I know I didn't like how it sounded from my end either. There was no response after that and I doubt that there will be at this point. If it does it will be a suprise.

After work today I am going to meet my cousin in Bishopville and then bring her back so she can spend 3 weeks here in Columbia. She has been itching to come up here for the longest. I got to go by my friend Shalanda's house once I get back. She just had surgery on her knee and is recouperating from that. Otherwise I think I am going to chill for the evening.

Back on Blogger

I have created another blogger account. My first one for some reason, had major problems. I did not have access to any of my blogs, and at that point I felt that it was just necessary to delete the entire thing. A few months later I have decided to come back.

I have other blogging sites, Multiply, Myspace, etc. This site does appear to be user friendly. However, if I have any problems with this one, I will probably end up deleting it again. Hopefully that will not have to happen.

Hope all is well in the blogging world.