Waiting it out

Yeah...there is much on my mind today.

I met this guy a while ago. He is acutally in a bike club that I am familiar with, however I never had a chance to acutally meet him until earlier this year. We had been emailing each other on myspace because he had always been sending little short messages like "Hey" and "What's up", things of that nature. So he mentioned coming up to a party in Columbia one weekend, and I was like cool because I will be at that same party.

It was in April. We introduce ourselves to each other, small talk. Basically that's it. I pretty much walked around all night taking pictures for our club's website and speaking to others. It wasn't until a few days later, this guy hit me up on myspace again.

To make a long story short, we started communicating more often, on the phone, on the internet. Things seem to be cool. We hadn't even been on a date and it seems as though we were feeling each other. Then a couple of weeks ago, I called him and we started talking and he was like he had to back away from me because he was developing feelings and he didn't know if he was ready to say that he is going to date just one woman. He continued to say I didn't do anything wrong but he just wanted to make sure this is the direction he wanted to go. As he stated, " You are messing my head up right now and I don't know what to do".

WHAT??? I don't even know whether to be flattered or to be aggravated at that. I am glad that he told me about that and made it clear. Some men won't even take the time to do that. Still I guess what got me is when I am at a point where I am feeling this dude and want to see where things lead, I get the big ol WHAMMO!!! The only thing to do in this situation is to let time take it's course. No lie it is very hard when you and the other person had communication so good you two were talking almost every night, but they say if it is meant to be, it will happen and we can't determine the time of that.

Being single...the joy, the pain, the unpredictable.